Withdrawl

I haven't wrote anything relevant for a while, and I figured it's time to get in some practice before I lose my touch. Anyway, a few weeks ago I experienced a rude awakening. I've decided that I'm going to make an attempt to cut my smoking down to "social smoking" status. This would mean limiting myself to such activities like heavy drinking. Hopefully, I'd get around to quitting in general.

My friends and I have assembled a "Redeem Team," in an effort to prove we're not a bunch of "old wash ups." We're scrimmaging against the "ISS Flight," a bunch of trash-talking and annoying (haha remind you of someone) Chinatown high schoolers and college kids. It was my first time actually playing ball since the summer, and the first time since I'd say college since I've actually run a full court game.

So we're all doing our thing. 10-15 minutes into it, I'm on the court feeling outta breath. A little dizzy and I start feeling the taste of blood with every breath I took. I thought to myself, what the fuck this is not good. I got someone to sub in for me, and while I stood hovering over the sink in the bathroom coughing. My phlemn was black. Some pretty nasty stuff man.

Being the stubborn dude that I am I said to myself, "Aiite, if I switch from Menthols to Parliment Lights, it should make things better. It's gotta be the fiberglass," and all sorts of bologna. Did that, played again two more weeks and like last week I wasn't spitting out ash. But I felt like I was hit by a fucking Mack truck. If I wanted to continue rolling with my boys, I'd better take care of this.

Also, the girl that I've been seeing these past couple of months expressed her displeasure for smokers this past weekend. She let me know the deal and said she "told herself she'd never date a smoker," and that now that she's dating one is something new for her. Kind of got me thinking at first, because I figured she already knew my deal when we first met. But that's irrelavant. hahaha come to think of it, none of the chicks that I've seen really approved of my vice. But hey, she's put up with it this long, and hasn't been on my case like some people why not give it a shot for her? I think I owe it to my family, friends, and most importantly myself. Life is way too short. I've got too much to live for.

It's going to be a long and brutal process lol. But yeah, I'm going to finally try to fulfill a new years resolution I've had for three years. Until next time haters, be good and stay safe.. Holla at ya boy.